I wish I hadn't went online today,

so many disappointing things I've found out.

I feel betrayed and lied to.

Not just by one person, but two.

First, a friend betrayed me. I have nothing to say to that person anymore. It's okay, but doesn't mean I can't be pissed about it.

Second, it's something I kept inside and it has been building. What I saw today made it explode inside. I'm so disappointed I feel hurt and I learned another lesson today: Don't believe words that are too sweet.

I supposed I should just go to bed and sleep and forget about everything I knew today.

But is this the way to solve the problem?

Some things need to be dealt with sooner or later,

and I just have to pick when I'll have to have a serious talk with him about what's happening.

I sound so fucking desperate you know?

and when I sound desperate, you just take advantage of me.

I hate that, I felt like I'm being used.

I'm swearing a lot now, don't blame me please.