You know, my beloved Pilot shaker died. ):
i don't know why, and i'm living on the Pentel one, and sadly it really sucks.
the friggin lead breaks everytime when i apply slightly more pressure onto the pencil
useless piece of crap.

anyway, that is just to relate the story for today.
this morning my mama went to the mall, so i asked her to buy me a new Pilot shaker,
i even gave her my spoiled one so she can use it as a sample.
i told her i wouldn't use any other mechanic other than that.

she came home and told me "Ki, i couldn't find it so i bought you another one"
i'm like *facepalm* "Just in case you don't have any mechanic to use in your exams"
well she just wasted her money.
thank god not mine. bwehehehe. :|

i went to the hospital to visit my uncle this afternoon,
he seems to be recovering, slowly but steadily.
my grandmother was there since morning
so we took her to the cafeteria to eat lunch.

when we returned to the ward, there was like
a bunch of indian crying
we then realized that a patient passed away.
he was a young man and his relatives were all crying.
what a pity, you know?
he just slipped in the bathroom, hit his head on the basin, and 2 months later, he's gone.
Condolences.
oh btw, he's just 21 years old.
hehe, we're very gossipy :3

this reminds me of my former teacher,
she was really a great teacher and she taught me on my last year of my primary school
a year after we graduated, i received an email from my old classmates
informing me that she passed away.
it was the same thing, she slipped on the slippery floor in the bathroom and knocked her head
on the basin.
well.. she wasn't young and she was having health problems,
but i never expected that she would pass away like this.

anyway, back to the present.
in the hospital, looking at them crying made me want to cry too.
i know it sounds so dumb but i quickly took out my econs book and tried to study.
it's hard to concentrate when you hear them howl and sob.
sigh.

and a while later, they pushed the dead body out from the ward with a large..
horizontal cylinder. lol it's kinda hard to explain.
this is my first time witnessing a death scene.
not exactly but yeah.
you can just feel the grief hanging in the air, making us feel uncomfortable.

oh yea, and when this all was happening,
i was having this terrible stomachache.
HAHA nature's calling.
and i have a bad habit of only pooping in my own house,
i had to cope with this pain for hours.
how painful ):

Tragic day, isn't it?
and i wonder, when will be the day that this will happen to me?
i know it's bad to think about it, one of my family.. you know, gone.
but this is the cycle of life, it will happen.
i wouldn't know how to accept that.
even the thought of it kills me.

I need some cheering up to do.
Tata.